Complicated world

Don't know why...
But when you grow up, the world you originally recognised starts changing as well...

Maybe it is not changing,
only you are changing
and maybe it is originally that complicated,
just you thought it was simple

Yes, the world is complicated
and it is getting more and more complicated

when you think someone is your friend,
it may turn out to be your enemy...

You never know,
who is who,
and why it turns out in that way

Why can't the world be simple?

Friendship?

What is friendship?

What are friends?

Aren't they the ones that will support you and care about you when you are sad?
Won't they ask you what happened when they can tell from your face that you are unhappy?

Can't they just care about me who really cares them without me begging them for just a little bit of care?

One said to me...
because you sort of isolate yourself when you are sad,
people around you don't know why you are sad and what make you unhappy,
that's why they do not dare to walk near you and ask you

Maybe it is my problem
but can't you tell from this reaction?
it's a sign of wanting care..

Of what time, wanting love and care from friends become a guilt?
Of what time, I deserve to be isolated?

If you could only walk to me
If you could only ask me how i was
If you really loved and cared me as a friend
I would tell you what had happened

I cannot understand
why you guys seem like keeping a lot of secrets behind me?
whenever I come near,
you guys just stop talking whatever you are talking...
and look very unwilling to share
and whenever I ask you what you were talking just now,
you avoid answering and look like you are hiding something...
Am i that scary?
Am i that unwelcomed?

I just don't understand
whenver i treasure a friend
there are always some problems occur
and I can never be close with that friend

Maybe I think too much or
Maybe it is really the truth...
I don't know...
I just don't understand...
Why this tragedy keeps falling on me? ;(

What does friends mean to me?
It means a lot...

My friends,
I just wanna say
I treasure you and I love you